Long Days

Life has been a little hectic these past couple of days. I've received a promotion of sorts at work. So, I'm kicking it up a bit to really show everyone that I'm the one for this job. It's honestly great. It's a M-F job, which is hard to find in the LPN world. Also it's 6-2:30, which are like, the best hours ever! So yeah, I'm all cool with that! But it has lead to some long days trying to get situated in with the new stuff.

I've been doing good with my exercising. I met with Lara, my personal trainer, twice this week. Today was hard hard hard. I hate being so out of breath! I feel so silly, standing there trying to breathe. My face gets all red. I don't sweat though. Never. I think I have a sweat problem. Which also leads me to think I have a cooling down problem. Eh. Today I did 20 reps of squats with 30 pounds, these back lift things, I did 15 of those, and then I did jumping squats, again 20. I did three sets of those. Jumping squats are the devil. Especially when you have a large chest that can't seem to find a decent sports bra! Then I did three sets of other exercises, I can't remember what all they are called, but they weren't so bad. And then the elliptical. I'm getting ready to head back into the gym for cardio. I had to wait for the childcare to open.

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This is the entry that just won't end. I did end up back at the gym yesterday. GO ME! I did 30 minutes on the elliptical. A hard tasks indeed. After that the Little Man and I headed to the inlaws for some Easter egg hunts today. Great fun was had by all and now I am home.

I've completed 30 more minutes on the elliptical here at home tonight. I'm quite proud of myself for that task.

On the getting healthy front, I've decided to quit doing Weight Watchers. I'm going to count calories for awhile, I don't want to get too burned out with counting points and counting the calories with the GoWearFit.

So that is that.

Another disappointing week....

gah! This is just so hard! Another week of working out 6 times per week and for what?? A freaking gain of 1.2 pounds! Seriously, any loss and I would be totally cool, but a gain? A gain? How's that for motivation! It totally sucks. Let me tell you.

I'm just lost. Totally lost on what to even concentrate on. Yesterday I bought a GoWearFit. It's like what the contestants on The Biggest Loser wear. It arrived today. (yay amazon and UPS!) It's currently charging and I can't wait to see the bigger picture here. Even though I know I'll still probably not lose any weight these coming weeks, I'd like to see how many calories I am truly burning up.

I set up my account and the dang thing says I've been consuming 2700 calories daily to maintain this weight. Ha, what a joke. It also says that I just have to get in 5000 steps and 3o minutes of non vigorous exercise a day and I'll lose two pounds a week. I've been doing so much more than that. Even with all this negativity I'm feeling tonight I can't wait to put it on before bed tonight. Now if it could only charge faster! :)

It's the beginning...AGAIN...

Who am I? Just a simple girl wanting to get a little...or a lot...healthier. In January I had the same resolution I've had every year before, to loose weight. Weight...I weigh a lot. A lot more than I would ever want anyone to really know. It's that little number that is so ingrained in me now, that my fascination with it, well, it's unhealthy.

So I've tweaked and turned my resolution into something it should have been all along. I want to be healthier. I want a healthy body and a healthy mind. I want to be proud of my body and not just because I am skinny (or skinnier) but because it is doing what it should be. It is moving and not hurting, it is burning calories efficiently, that my body is working like it should be.

To achieve this resolution I must get my mind into a healthy place. A place that isn't so focused on thin and fat and the numbers on the scale.

I'm also a Weight Watchers gal. I'll still be following my points throughout my journey. I've joined the gym and have been working out for three weeks now.

My weight loss has been back and forth. Especially since I've been working out I've been gaining and loosing the same damn pound!

I just want to be happy with what my body can do.